Gone girl

cant sleep so i watched gone girl. writing this just as i finished it so my memory is still fresh,but i havent digested it completely yet. I had the same feeling i had with welcome to the nhk s misaki with this movies "antagonist". cant even call her an antagonist tbh. i get her rage and i get her reason but at the end of the day she was doing it cuz she liked the performance. cant blame her really her entire life is a performance. like at the start i thought she was just getting revenge. he killed everything she was, not a physchal homoside maybe but definetly a mental one. but as soon as i saw the suicide plan i understood that she wasnt doing this as a "revenge". she was just playing a role writing a story. she planed her death spotlessly. she had everthing planed and written in her callendar. if she wanted to die and leave this scenario she could kill her self at any moment cant she?she coulve divorced the guy from the start. but she doesnt want to leave its as if she lives on the pity she gives herself.killing herself wouldve hurt the guy for sure, public divorce wouldve been shamefull. but she had to go the extra mile. not to hurt him but to see everyone pity her. to see everyone care about her love her idolize her. i had many moments where i pitied the protagonist. he is a dick for sure but i had many moments where i thought "he is an ashole but he did not deserve THIS". he also knows this. doesnt feel much remorse from the start he hates her guts. even before shit hit the fan he hated her. as he put it 2 people controling each other non stop. she sculpted him into someone he could never be by himself but he got to have a hot wife that wows everyone. 2 sociopahs that cant leave each other because they know they depend on eachother. its just one of them got tired of acting before the other, after all she had her whole life to practise. in a way i knew that they werent going to have a divorce. he had countless times where he coulve escaped this situation. like she did before the whole "murder" situation happened. but he held her hand he sucked it up like she did. i guess thats karma. watchng this film did made me say what a bitch inside my head multiple times. almost makes u pitty the guy. he hasnt killed anyone but he isnt inocent by any means. they both had many chances to leave this situation they never took it. even though its not an exact paralel it sure did make me think of misaki from nhk as i mentioned before. i should write my thoughts about it on here as well. 07-jul-26